Highway Reflections

I'm in the backseat of a car traveling down the highway. The evening is beautiful. Laying across the backseat with my feet dangling out the rear driver side window, I pear up and out the rear passenger side window. The traffic highway lights glisten by as they illuminate the surrounding area, but up in that dark sky the stars are shining bright and stationary. Sean and Kendra are up front arguing, but I just tune them out. I've got bigger things on my mind. My future. I turned 19 earlier today. I'm not old yet, but I'm not so young either. I like to think age is just a number though. Sure as we get older we continue to mature learn more about life and ourselves but things change, places change, people change, situations change, feelings change, everything changes. I hate change. I try, but the prevention of change is inevitable. You can try all you want, but you can't control the atmosphere around you and the people in it. You can only control yourself. Take chances, make the moves. It's hard. Fear lingers all around. You may like the place your in but want something more. What if going for the extra step puts what you already have in jeopardy. Do you continue anyway? Do you take the safe way out? It's impossible to be fearless, because fear is a human emotion. We have to accept it and live with it, just like the choices we make. The only question is do you hold out and be bold or do you just take it as it is? For me.. I don't know. Right now my life just keeps moving on down the highway just like this car is tonight. Where do the exit signs lead? I have no idea now, but I will someday...